Wallowing in self pity.

One has to be confident and somewhat adamant of self worth , it is not analogous to hubris , rather shinning with self worth. Conditions in journey and baggage carried forward since incarnation as a package of incarnation , all these combined make one scapegoat of wolf wandering around emitting venom. And with all these...

Winter Blues.

Winter's chill has set in deep,A blanket of sadness to keep,The days are short and the nights long,A never-ending melancholy song. The trees are bare, the grass is dead,A world of white, so stark and led,The sun is hidden behind the clouds,A mood of boredom, that never shrouds. The warmth of summer, a distant dream,A...

As if human becoming machine.

Basically everything in world is machine i . e natural machines or man made machines as if machine made by machines. What prompted human to make machines is feeling /experiencing limitations within human machine functionality. Human memory is limited and its retrieval at requirement is uneven , further human at a moment can pay attention...

Always pondering others reaction .

Some people with default thought process always while interacting with others constantly generating undue thoughts about other person reactions and tend to speak next sentence expressions tuned to default mode constant evaluating others reaction, one may justify it as attempt to preserve self and not to hurt other and generate positive impression , but usually...

Chat GPT BRIGHT FUTURE , UNDUE CONCERN.

A remarkable , so far with no absolute parallel Artificial Intelligence tool , which has taken world by storm and became fastest growing app and just see debate it has generated and concerns expressed from every sphere of human society , be it top educational institute , renowned personalities , legal , govt , corporate...

Peak of feeling fearless fear .

Sailors are making all efforts to sail the boat , Yet, boat is drifting/adrift in mid sea , The boat is hit by curses, It is sinking since the moment it was launched into sea , To welcome with calmness in otherwise rough sea ,making the landing dangerous, Floating without direction, The circular wind blows...

Something In The Face.

Some special feature or distinctive appearance , That a normal status denied, Demons interpret easy prey and angels jostle to cast their influence , Neither comes near any one, Caught between hyper attraction , Denied to join any group or rank , Even in solitude these demons/angels lurking , what's this , why this ,...

Evening pleasant in all seasons .

Evening nice in all seasons , Come outside to daily view it , Enjoy watching Sun going to rest , so that one also go into slow mode , When mighty Sun leave for rest ,Why not venture out, When residents of palaces feel fragile and volatile , than what could provide abundant solace then...

False Hope Syndrome .

To have a positive attitude is nice , but being extremely positive without reasonably evaluating its pros and cons may result in accelerated despair later . Day dreaming does not help to face reality and feeling that ones own version as correct is not always tenable , one cant have all facts about something ,...

Reality of one and all

One is shaking , not the surrounding , It appears to one that everything shaking , But it is reality to one only , not reality of masses , They perceive according to whirlpool surrounding them , Why am one shaking , The internal mechanism deteriorating , Outside pressures hitting hard , What makes one...

How to be mindful.

The world is getting complex day by day and solutions/problems getting complex despite artificial intelligence , machine learning and extremely fast data analytics . Despite huge progress to address the wellbeing of humankind in present times ,suffering as if remains permanent human condition at least since human race ascended from apes, i e all is...

LENORE.

After months of quiet ,calm sleep, added by sedatives and modern mood enhancers, forgetting all quaint and curios lore , It turned out to be dreary midnight, descending from heaven to hell, Suddenly tapping and rapping around me at hoary midnight, after months of plain sleep added by anti anxiety etc dispeller, claiming to be...

Languishing.

It isn't burnout, it isn't depression, Just joyless and aimless, Languishing, Stagnation and emptiness Piercing through foggy windshield, From low to flourishing, Pondering peak of well being, To be out from valley of despondency,drained, worthless, ill-being , Getting a sense of meaninglessness, Void between low and flourishing and just languishing, Functioning at low capacity ,no...

Reciprocal Responses.

Responses may be reciprocal or may not be so, A childish jubilance propel one to share hearing or reading interesting things, But it looks awkward to child to find their responses muted or lukewarm, As if for them matter matters or not,that is not easily divulged, Child fantasized things fast and gets upset on slight...

Good and Bad Sensations.

What lies around is temporary, It will pass,it had passed, And therefore joy/suffering ephemeral, Yet it appears strange, Why can't it be visualised, When joy and pain to one ,felt and apprised by others, And one's self reaction marred by that all pervasive feeling of gloom, So profound is the achievement of nothingness, uselessness That...

If you fall short , you fail.

Shoot for the moon, Atleast land above from where started, No moon was dreamt or visible, These streets knows me, I had walked them whole life, But now turned stranger, They don't recognise me, Those aisle surrounded by rows of tree's, Lively calm moving traffic, And that gentle surrounding and being, That had a touch...

Caprice and Surprise

One flows widely in the reverie & enjoys the moment/things much without the consideration of its impact on other/surrounding. The events/things which one can expect never surprise one ,only the unexpected ,unusual occurrence surprise one. Some humans appears to be prone to surprises as if they expect everything and nothing is unusual for them , but the...

Without any existence.

Challenges are mounting, Weather getting rougher, Rust spreading fast and deep, Gloom descending from all corners, Surface getting shrouded by layer of dust, Surrounded by waste and awful forces of despair, All hopes buried down, Yet I am here and there,. Without any existence, Without any agenda, With tottering by rising ages, Limbs and sight...

A Definable Shape.

Being outside in freshness, Rocked the dull weight in heart', Now as if started taking, A Definable Shape, Something pressed from inside, Causing disorientation, Unexpected break in gauzy spell, May it create a mark in, Overwhelming sense of brokenness, No end in sight, As if everyone has given up, A sparkle here and there, Add...

Profound Pain.

Lived with profound pain, Throughout his brief life, Never complained of it, Always conserving energy, Struggling to respond, Struggling to initiate, Struggling to defend,. Struggling to remain afloat, Avoiding and reducing, The speed of collapse, To have the solace of, Being yet in game, Albeit losing one, Occassionally dreaming, To play like normal being, Swallow...

Let it happen,What they like.

Let it happen, What they like, No tension,no problem,. Worst is enthrusted upon, Since the beginning of journey, Let it add, What it could, Let them enjoy, Replete with all pleasure, Till it can last, May be till eternity, Surrendered to will of them All those lives beyond cloud, Or beyond the, Imagination of conscious...

YET ALL MANEUVER FACILE.

Dressing the window,albeit peripheral, rust that all was heaped, with layers and layers of dust, as was destined ,with no activity of surface, The surface cant stood against flowing air, sieve malevolence ,And lied dormant, it was lying long, now polishing appearance with mellow demeanour, with perfect composure, leaving no inkling of suspicion, neither of...

Naivety Of Era.

It struck with ferocity, with all its ferocity, and , one by one, all assumptions proved futile, And at last, the whole edifice , stood without any foundation, naivety of era, gradually replaced by whimsical arrogance, earlier infantile structures were replaced, infantilism was nurtured,in vogue for long, cant bear squarely facing challenges, pushing boundaries for...

The bay of disturbed state of being.

Time constantly slipping/fliting, all twigs and leaves withered, trunk of tree yet ticking, still aspiring to gain again that heydays, The storm that formed in .. bay of disturbed state of being, this time,it was more severe, it shook the very existence, So many storms passed earlier, Yet The bay of disturbed state of being...

Slipping into fantasy.

One of the big distraction many faces is lacking in ability to remain somewhat static to events and obscured thought pattern which has high disposition to slip into fantasy again and again.AS if totally lacking power to concentrate and draw any meaningful conclusion As such people lack ability to display any self image and they...

Individual inning.

A new inning, fresh for new opening, taking guard, exploring the field, judging gaps, envisaging scope, to play innings, with excitement and charm, spectators watching or not, surrounding immaterial, not to be approved by others, let be approved by self, playing till retired, neither get/felt hurt, inning end as fresh, new inning to unfold, in...

Enemy number 2.

The primary source of discontent are usually ignored and not much is dwelled upon them and force of attention is shifted to easy targets ,which are easily best alternatives to sway attention of masses and get them perfectly engaged.   The hunger for revenge rises,bad circumstances which one could not cherish at all but have...

Comfort Zone.

Expanding the zone, zoom in on the realities, focus on purpose of life, cherishing every moment, that speeds up, embracing happening, melting and wading into uncharted territory, putting into someone else shoe, striving to extend zone of comfort ,and to find treasure, one side of same coin, the worst behind us, jostling secure and we'll...

Embrace the unknown.

Unknown is inevitable, time ticking, growing older,may not wiser, Memories crafted in long journey, drowned in debris of wayward attitudes, Hardship said to taught lot, launching pad for next learning experience, The present is what matters most, right here right now, Amazing experience s or tortuous one, preparing for worst yet having faith in best,...

Holding You Back.

Something is lacking somewhere, holding you back, from get flowing, have a objective look, what is hampering that flow, to which one is entitled, Not directing ones time to its direction, getting affixed your passion/capability, to a growth trajectory, The sore points lies within, not breaking the ice, and emotions raising head frequently, to derail...

Evenings hardly passes,yet years flowing fast.

Strange philosophy of life, evenings hardly passes, yet years flowing fast, decades upon decades deduced , journey of day begin bit easy, dawn delve into new date, somber going sets in,  day appearing endless tunnel, end hardly visible, no nap to soothe, fluttering self, at all nook and cranny, yet hardly evening sets in, and...

Swinging Wayward.

Stimuli flying here and there, That provokes senses, They cries for reactions, Yet reactions hardly lies in raising temper/shouting, Stimuli filled with combustible ingredients, It explodes with rising tempers, Shattering it's very base, A horse of long race, Controls actions/reactions, Avoids bruishe s /wound from traps, Traps that may be or may not be, Yet...

Offhand Angel.

Cool in demeanor, indifferent,casual yet bit offensive, nonchalant halo pervading, yet resembles lacking grace, but yet cool in manner, then how it hurts, feels offensive/ungracious, The intent appears vague, The intent appears hollow, casual,frustrating,eerie, sounds frosty coolness, not colored in vivid aroma, scantly revealing calmness, hardly reveling calmness, what to gather from such angel, whats...

Malaise.

What has changed, nothing appeared to have changed, the world around is same, yet that affinity gone, as if a malaise penetrated deep inside, no cause apparent, roots untraceable, All near and dear perplexed, pouring more succor, yet that rapport, that harmony, within and outside elusive, a decisive turn, not of destiny, but of time...

A plow horse.

Alone not like the others, he was not for playing, he was for plowing, a epiphany ,a picture flashed, in his psyche, and again the picture blurred, like a reflection in the pond, standing alone, by the fence in the field, that he wasn't born A plow horse.  It got transcended to retrograded to tagged...

Tickling Sensation.

A low level electric current, noticeable but not  aching, As if in the barren land, even oasis sink in the sand, of its own good ideas, But what, that not expected, considered buried/oblivious, raises its fury again, without waiting for final day, at its own discretion, to singe and pale, the edifice, in shambles,to its...

Disparate Effulgence.

The disparate desperation of spirits, wandering in labyrinth of black hole, to that other end of, effulgence of harvest moon, the far cries of disparate destitute s, preying to suck that all gleaming, that creation ,experiencing wonders, the change may appear slow,but penetrate swiftly, the track has changed, the directions changed, putting first things first,...

Tongue on fire.

The impulse were buried deep unknown abstractedly in labyrinthine corridors of profound thoughts sallow surface filled with clods Attempt to plow/harrow only added to debris/malise Despite gradual depredation of time some amber smoldering tempering weeds And roots of all roots yet hearts simmering And as if cant be doused or turn into ashes So order...

This was to happen.

This was to happen It was the hell that was to be trudged before being out of it out of it Sufficient As if only hell is real with no antonyms And it is quite achievement to be out of it with no more wandering entanglements of ups and down.  

All days going to pass.

All days are going to pass Fraught with weighted stiffness or easy smooth sailing All the days are going to pass Days goes on passing and are passed without any concern of origin or end devoid of any destination From the eternal universe a drama been devolved on this tiny planet of no much consequences...

Navel Gazing.

When the adjustment with surrounding vitiates and incursion to outer fields catches more burnt then one focuses to ones navel to immerse in its gazing.Being indulgent in petty incidents and remaining drowned in them agog with self contemplation etc at expense of wider reality. Immerse in contemplation about happening around self and  ones proclivities causes...

Micro Management.

A responsible person find solace in successfully tackling his responsibilities ,much that contains and directly/indirectly impacts his own well-being ,and in pursuit of following that aim with that vision one lose the sense and sensibilities of relationship. Too much observing and examining ones thought/vision/goals and fixing same on all contingent causes and also in ones...

Self Realization.

A word used  most enigmatically  in motivation/spirituality  ,with regard to explaining and satisfying purpose in this mundane life. Attaining  ones potential after stretching it wide along with inherent possibilities ,the capability is stabilized to derive the variance and putting efforts to reach near that  mean to avail maximum comfort of satisfied self so that it...

How to understand reality.

Really what is underlying themes and dimensions are not that easy to decipher and it may never hardly be understood to be acted upon.All words and phrases are vibrant in surrounding,yet to realize  something deeply to shape them as ones guidelines happens not with ease. First of all we need to ponder what is reality-...

The future of work.

With growing automation jobs are decreasing ,and apprehensions are running deep about running out of work,causing mass unemployment and its resultant consequences. Yet fact remains that productivity may rise significantly and their gains /redistribution of income in some form or other may follow to more than compensate many job losses.First upgrading ones skills may become...

Discard the delusion.

Bondage is perpetuated by ones notion penetrated deep and forming an armor preventing other aspects to cast their rays to stir an honest pondering to realize multiplicity /complexity surrounding the simple explanations. To venture into battle field of life ,which is fought internal and external.One live in this world apart from living in his own...

Finding remedy not obsessing fault.

Fault and default appears to be cornerstone of this existence,and it could hardly be thought of  civilization in which understanding is so perfect that faults are not needed to be conjured upon along with  a grievance mechanism that cures it to its roots. Remedies are not always perfect ,that can turn a situation that fulfills...

They have no words.

Many times words are word literally If it was about mere consciousness it is in many species apart from human but they have no words to explain to self to explain to others to link to past to visualize in fantasy It cause the differentials which is not merely spontaneous but addictive to particular sort...

The Disconnect.

As if connections are hardly seamless,they always fluctuate,connect-disconnect-Not properly connect.Different state of connected,trying to connect to again and again vividly by many means,drawing solace by hearing persistently that nothing is perfect and imperfection to an extent is acceptable/genuine ,but what point and purpose in those extant of disconnect drawing in extreme other direction of connected....

Tipping Point.

The dithering prevailing for long whirlpool of emotions swinging in either way ambiance of stagnation engulfed That in individuals life remain no common interest it only exhibits in movies viewers swaying with protagonist meandering through the maze with complexities of emotion base/roots hardly visible That all has now gained moment of critical mass threshold of...

Parasites.

No light of own just reflect others light transmute scorching light/heat in luminous glow Yet there are dark holes they suck all light And reflect darkness only many down here as if survive by sucking on others happiness they have none a ghastly mad by observing strange those creatures relishing life with nothing to please...

Repeated Adventures.

One cant tackle oneself pits are the same falling again and again unfailingly lesson learnt,lesson washed resources are limited yet excursions repeated on dead ends what sort of weird needs lying dormant,raising head propel again and again compel again and again overpower all resolve/commitment to dissolve into repeated adventure of destruction.    

The Swirling Aria.

The tedious path/journey is to be traversed/trudged along with its usual ups and lows ,a aria of ones individual theme again appears and subdues with its own rhythm to pull back or put steam into ones being. The opera of life unfolds and continue with its own sense of direction ,as if it is both...

Dark alleys in Sleeping city.

The tiredness settled deep with ruthless pursuit of accomplishing the mission of passing each and every day with lacking all capacity to view the sunshine/moonlight unadulterated ,all vision got blurred with level of pollution  going so high that finding originality akin to finding Nirvana. The city pouring on road ,thronging makeshift structures providing eatables ,many...

Normalization process.

The basic theme should be so nourished that periodical setbacks do not disrupt in so way that it is again back to nearly  beginning with a heavy conscious of neglect  ,failure and guilt of repeating phenomenon and hardly able to stabilize learning and prevent catastrophe . The two neighbours nourished perceived enmity  for long and...

The New Normal

We get in the morning to again immerse in the normalcy that is prevailing . Sometimes changes are accruing gradually and consistently and that is not visualized as changes in prevailing normal. In life -things all of a sudden or sometimes in due course alters substantially from prevailing normal and that has to be adjusted /accommodated to become comfortable in new normal.,such...

To be chronically impulsive is a trait ..

There are many traits of one,which are nurtured over time,by guidance of the will or by the guidance of the event's faced  on the volatile internal turf. If one is swayed in again and again in small impulsive,a state of alarm appears there,being too sensitive is not a ideal stage,the small issues which are of no significance...

Understanding Fear

The known/unknown fear has to be feared ,as in many cases it permeates deep into the unconscious world and it echos/resonate in such subtle way that cause one to be the victim of a feeling /emotion/unreality called fear. the individual feels self so limited and feels that one is in a trap and behind the...

The past perfect and future tense

One who has been largely satisfied and never got the time /reason /justification to explore something beyond the daily chorus of activity in family organization and society. one has largely been immersed in his environment ,belonging,longing ,losing one and gaining other ,but sometime some fine morning something sets in and one starts feeling that now time...

Fluctuating Fluctuation

I fit not to the world, or the world not fit for me, its the feeling that shrouded, as if i am a alien product, a temporary resident, alien to that land, the temporal attachment, swings so vastly, tried to catch some, but capture nothing, when ride high, the surrounding appears alike, heaven, when ride...

The hollowness

it seems to be strong, it seems to be wonderful, one had the conviction, that it represent the anchor, one fine morning, just few shocks, as usual were present, it collapsed like, the structure of cards, no  sign of imminent collapse, no abnormal event present, it seems that, its strength was illusion, the hollowness was deep, rooted...

exploration of personal boundaries

some boundaries are static well defined by maps,the exploration of personal boundaries is the task in the pursuit of expansion of self horizon,how far one can fly safely so that landing back may not be of trouble. the individuals are sometime in some sphere may be constrained by the education obtained,the earlier blocks could be softened by...

Belief in Self

the all that lacks, where to find, its elusive, the belief in self, may be lacking, the belief in other, may be too difficult, the will lacks, without the direction, the self comfort at night, going it with bed, should  be protected, something that let remain, the dreams colorful, the picture of day, the drama of...

Bout of guilt/limping back to normalcy.

One need to take lessons from hard core ones,who despite of any insult ,wrong deeds,rejections,failure,being humiliated ,scolded and despite feeling of apathy toward him by large people is not perturbed altogether and remain firmly saddled in the normalacy,tranquility and peace of mind making others sorry about there so called real or imaginary opinions/views. The one...

Periodic/recurring emotional collapse

In the present world majority of people hardly give weight age to face value straight forward,yet there are many ,who are sensible to all slight impulses,and their heart/mind is burdened by the self /others feeling /expression ,the impact over them of events in their life/surrounding goes deep. the practicality is not defined and understood much by them...

No one normal [ever]made history

It is usually said that nobody normal ever made history,the logic of such idiom is not fully digestible ,because it appear that one who had made history has the better understanding of normal/general citizen attitude mentality along with the culture/tradition/limitation of society. It appears that one who made history was perfectly normal but endowed with intelligence to...

Dynamic inconsistency/time inconsistency

A decision maker knows that changes are occurring at such fast that what is relevant today may not be relevant at another point of time ,further there are many behavioral aspects which impact the consistency of decision linked to dynamism and time,as investor is more eager to cut gains than losses ,the eagerness to consume...

The depressions

One is afraid to get in touch with innermost feeling,anxieties and demons that are slowing down one,societies have encouraged one to perpetuate his pain by trying to avoid feeling at all time,we talk ourselves as if we are out of uncomfortable questions but may be bothering us deep down, INSTEAD  we push them further down and believe in getting  on with life/to conceal...

The state of no command

Everything has to be managed ,as to give it proper shape and direction and enhance and preserve its output with inputs,human has multiple means of giving establishing commands ,in subtle,indirect,suggestive way and sometime exercising brute other means.To establish authority and order .  In the earlier era ,there were less means of communications and means of...

Mental retardation natural or adoptive

Much of the additions are made in human life ,are by way of adopting things naturally,by choice or ignorantly or by confusion ,inertia or the perennial weaker self. Therefore there is no doubt that additions are made by human's in all sphere of his reach and existence,the puzzle is complex when one explain the circumstances/environment...

Personality disorder.

The order and disorder are complicated thing to understand and it is perception and the social mold that determine its acceptability,now someone with finer urges is not willing to adhere the old and un understandable norms than titles are distributed freely. It appears  one has to distinguish between the disorder which is biological and which has led the...

DEPRESSIONS.

The state of despondency perpetuated by feeling not being involved in the affairs around one ,the vigor is gone,the feeling of involved is gone and the clouds of rotten particles starts encircling one and the solitude become the escape route to avoid facing reality and the fear to face other as one apprehend that other will read his state and...

The tiredness.

Chronic fatigue is hardly due to work,we hardly work as hard as our ancestors did,but rather due to scattering of our forces,as ours is not a focused age,countless influences pull us in conflicting directions,we may find ourselves trying to do a hundred things hasty rather than one thing at a time carefully and well.one /the system generally measures...